Depression in talented persons is common. Lately on Facebook comments, I have been reading friends talking about Depression.
“Depression is a mood disorder that causes a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest. Also called major depressive disorder or clinical depression, it affects how you feel, think and behave and can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems. You may have trouble doing normal day-to-day activities, and sometimes you may feel as if life isn’t worth living.
Depression in aged persons is constant. Living in a 55+ environment means I see depression on walkers, depression on canes, depression never letting the person outside their homes and eventually depression meeting EMS vehicles which leave the apartment empty to sell again.
I felt depression on me last night. It was a Saturday night and I had no date, no parties, no distraction. My sewing needle broke and it was too late to go out to replace it. So it was time to face the depression in the room.
It felt large, amorphous, greyish, ponderous and heavy. It made everything feel ugly. It tortured me with lies and insults.
My usual network-go-to persons have gone from my life so I couldn’t talk it out this time. They needed to move into new places which were not healthy for me so I had to pull back from them. But not having them in a depression-crisis is what I faced last night. My outreach was limited to inside my home.
So I listened to U-tube (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHaa52PjPss) videos of the work on Sex and Love Addiction by Dr. Patrick Carnes. And that information and wisdom rebalanced me. I slept deeply and woke up feeling better about myself. I recommend his videos and books.
The most important point I gleaned is this: when talented persons get depressed, talented persons need to get back into their talent.
Today I am talented, not depressed.